September 11 nung last kaming nag-usap ni Saul. Away na naman, as usual. Pero kanina, kinausap ko siya. Tinext ko siya. Para makipag-bati na sana. Okay naman nung una. Habang tumatagal yung pag-uusap, mejo umiba na e. Uminit yung ulo niya. Nagtanong lang naman ako kung pumunta ba siya nung SNA days and kung nanood siya ng cheering. Tapos nag post ng stat sa FB na I HATE MATH (Maling Akala Tamang Hinala). Nakakainis, nagtanong lang naman ako tapos ganon na siya kung maka react? Wala naman sigurong masama sa tinanong ko di ba? So ayun. Sabi ko ayusin niya pagsasasagot niya. Tuluyan ng nagalit. Hindi ko na nga maalala sinabi niya saakin after e, alam ko kung ano, pero hindi ko maalala exact words na ginamit niya. Ang alam ko lang masasakit yun. Yung para bang, pinamukha niya sakin na mas okay nung wala kaming communication. Na mas nagagawa niya mga gusto niya nung wala ako-- something na hindi niya nagawa in a long time, kasi nga raw nandun ako. Hindi ko na alam sasabihin ko kanina kaya puro "I'm sorry" na lang sinabi ko. Isa pa, sobrang nasaktan na ako nun e. Umiiyak na nga ako, buti na lang hindi ako nadatnan nila mommy. Kasi sobrang nasaktan na ako, hindi ko na nagawang magalit pa. Sinend ko na lang 'to sakanya, nakita ko 'to sa Tumblr:
Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightlymean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out.
Bagay na bagay kasi samin yan e. Parang nanjan nga lahat ng problema namin. Anyway, nagsorry naman siya. Pero as usual, being his cold, immature self, nanumbat pa. Ako naman daw nagsimula..blah blah blah. Hindi ko na sinagot. Sabi ko hindi ko na siya guguluhin kahit kailan. Tama na siguro. Pagod na pagod na rin ako. Mahirap na wala siya, pero mas mahirap siguro kung paulit ulit niya lang akong sasaktan. :/
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